dear child…

“Although my father and my mother have abandoned me, 

Yet The Lord will take me up [adopt me as His child].”

-Psalms 27:10

Dear Child,

I know what it's like to cry so hard there are no tears left. To hear the buzzing of the doors being unlocked so you can visit your incarcerated parent once again. To feel like your parents' second home is prison, and to start to wonder if they like that home better than being at home with you. I know what it feels like to not feel chosen, to feel unwanted and unimportant. To be so angry with them for leaving you, but to still love them with everything inside of you. I know what it’s like to look at your friends’ mother and father, and ask God why He didn't choose different parents for you. I know what it’s like to feel like God thought you weren’t worth it to be given to a healthy family who loves each other and who s t a y s. To question if your life will end up looking any better, or if it runs in the family so your fate is inevitable. To wonder if no matter how hard you fight it, if you will still end up like them. I know what it’s like to fear that everyone who says, “I love you” is going to end up leaving -- just like they did. To keep everyone at arm’s length, and not let them see the real, raw parts of you because you’re scared they won’t take care of them – that they will leave you like your parent did. I know what it’s like to settle in relationships, and believe that you are not good enough to get the love you actually deserve. I know what it’s like to watch your siblings fall down the same path as your parents and how it breaks your heart year after year watching them spiral into addiction. 

I remember every birthday I had as a little girl, someone would round the corner with the candles lit up so beautifully on my birthday cake. I never batted an eye or even had to contemplate on what I wanted my birthday wish to be because year after year it was always the same – for my Dad to come home. 

My heart aches and breaks for your little girl heart if this is your story too…

But the good news it that you are not alone. I am here for you, and am only a click away. Fill out the contact page, and let’s start this journey together♡